i feel like a couple years ago, or maybe even just one, i used to be so much more imaginative than i am now. it's kind of odd considering my studies over the preceding 20 months have only advocated creativity, and yet i still feel it slipping away. i used to have so many ideas and so many motivations but now i just regularly find myself devoid of impetus.
maybe because i'm always been thought to think more critically about things. constantly having to analyse and be thinking 'is this right?', 'is this okay?', it hinders you. i don't mind exercising intellect but not when it means losing all intuition.
it's a strange feeling watching yourself change and yet having no control over it.
