Tuesday, September 7, 2010

everybody is the same around here

i swear to god i have not met one remarkably unique person in the past couple months, perhaps even years. i think it's where i live, i would hope it's not like this everywhere. don't get me wrong, i absolutely love all my friends and the people close to me, i think they're great and because i know them well, i know they all have their own distinctive taste, style etc. etc. but i feel like the reason i'm not making more new best friends, or rather, not having any motivation to be doing so, is because everyone bores the crap out of me. there is a drive behind this rant, without naming names and all that business, there are certain people who i feel rip others off a bit, and therefore generate themselves a duplicate of them. the same thing happens when another person copies that person and eventually, everyone around here ends up the same. i get a bit more defensive when such things happen to me, which is why i'm so upset at the moment. a lot of the things i have liked for a long time and i feel that define me have recently been popping up in a lot of other people and i'm starting to find myself to be one of those uninteresting people which is probably the reason i'm getting so worked up about this. i usually like that that i know a lot of people with similar tastes, but when it gets to the stage that other people i know begin purposely copying one another, then it starts to bug me. i feel like some people do this to me in attempts to prove they can be me, but better, or something, and competitiveness is a pet hate of mine. i don't know, perhaps i'm being paranoid, pretentious or unreasonable but i'd really like to just have a couple distinctive features of my own because people used to tell me i did, but of late, those comments have been getting increasingly less frequent.