actualisation

things have become very clear to me within the past couple of months. i know who i am and who i want to be. i know my desires in life and my fears as well. i can recognise now what kind of person i am, how i came to be this way and to some degree what changes i'd like to make in the future. for the first time in my life i am wholly and indisputably sure of myself. i am painfully self-aware.